Mr. Selley,
Hello My name is Sergio. Mr. Selley can you do a study or video blog on a hardened heart nd the symptoms. Mr. Selley what I really want to ask you is how do i escape this state of a hardened heart. You see mr. selley I believe that muy conscience is seared. That my heart is beyond repair. It is from an anger that is deeply lodged inside my being that doesnt enable me to forgive people and whenever someone tries to act tough or puts up a front as most people in California I tend to think HOw am I better than you?? How can I show you that I am not afraid of You? and Once I see them Humble then I treat them Nice. I have learned that this is Demonic because I am trying to manipulate people. But the Problem is that I cant stop doing it. I just cant be Humble. I know it is from a lack of trusting GOD And I also know that it is from a lack of forgiving my past and all its circumstances. I guess I am afraid to look at in the mirror.I am really afraid. ALso because I have a deep hurt in my soul from trying to step out in Faith once. Because, actually it was more than once, but not in Wisdom and definitely through desperate impatience. i felt christs Love and I automatically wanted to share it with the world. I thought that By being my true self with people, by showing them my feelings and my motives then i was being righteous and I was helping GOd’s Kingdom. Well God has shown me my wickedness and my motives and I hid instead of coming to him and the last four years of my walk I have been relying basically on GOds Grace to get by but i havent changed. Mr. GOrdon once I was told..”What are you waiting for son, are you waiting for a herat attack, till you receive Gods Love?” And I thought to myself, “Yes, yes I am” You see Whenever I have tried to let my heart be softened, People Look down on me or so it seems Maybe Because I used to falsely believe in what it meant to be humble And people always looked at me saying “ok Buddy” because I acted naive I guess. I dont know but I do know that Every time i try to get close to God, People treat me bad and I am more sensitive, enraging me and making me think thoughts of revenge because I think to myself, I am not dumb. I am just as smart as them what is their problem?
They told me at church I was very proudful Of which I am well aware of, but this enraged me so as i began to try and be humble I learned that i was really putting myself in a lower position than other people but i did it with such fervent religiosity that I tried and tried again not listening to the voice of GOd because as I was taught.. Who are you going to serve Satan Or GOd? so I said to myself I need to be humble so I will “serve” GOd and i continued this way. Please do a study on this topic of a seared conscience Cause I believe I might have it.
October 30th, 2010 at 6:56 pm
Mr. Selley,
Hello My name is Sergio. Mr. Selley can you do a study or video blog on a hardened heart nd the symptoms. Mr. Selley what I really want to ask you is how do i escape this state of a hardened heart. You see mr. selley I believe that muy conscience is seared. That my heart is beyond repair. It is from an anger that is deeply lodged inside my being that doesnt enable me to forgive people and whenever someone tries to act tough or puts up a front as most people in California I tend to think HOw am I better than you?? How can I show you that I am not afraid of You? and Once I see them Humble then I treat them Nice. I have learned that this is Demonic because I am trying to manipulate people. But the Problem is that I cant stop doing it. I just cant be Humble. I know it is from a lack of trusting GOD And I also know that it is from a lack of forgiving my past and all its circumstances. I guess I am afraid to look at in the mirror.I am really afraid. ALso because I have a deep hurt in my soul from trying to step out in Faith once. Because, actually it was more than once, but not in Wisdom and definitely through desperate impatience. i felt christs Love and I automatically wanted to share it with the world. I thought that By being my true self with people, by showing them my feelings and my motives then i was being righteous and I was helping GOd’s Kingdom. Well God has shown me my wickedness and my motives and I hid instead of coming to him and the last four years of my walk I have been relying basically on GOds Grace to get by but i havent changed. Mr. GOrdon once I was told..”What are you waiting for son, are you waiting for a herat attack, till you receive Gods Love?” And I thought to myself, “Yes, yes I am” You see Whenever I have tried to let my heart be softened, People Look down on me or so it seems Maybe Because I used to falsely believe in what it meant to be humble And people always looked at me saying “ok Buddy” because I acted naive I guess. I dont know but I do know that Every time i try to get close to God, People treat me bad and I am more sensitive, enraging me and making me think thoughts of revenge because I think to myself, I am not dumb. I am just as smart as them what is their problem?
They told me at church I was very proudful Of which I am well aware of, but this enraged me so as i began to try and be humble I learned that i was really putting myself in a lower position than other people but i did it with such fervent religiosity that I tried and tried again not listening to the voice of GOd because as I was taught.. Who are you going to serve Satan Or GOd? so I said to myself I need to be humble so I will “serve” GOd and i continued this way. Please do a study on this topic of a seared conscience Cause I believe I might have it.